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my life is about not diagnosing people, only graal can judge me. Telling someone else who or what they are is so...boring HA and when I see it go down im just like derp go look in a mirror. There is always more to the picture. Some times it seems everything relates.
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Not gonna lie I kind of cherish these days in a weird way. First off, I was kind of a bad kid. It diminishes with age, but people were scared of my friend group and myself and wouldn't dare pick on us because we did "illegal" things. And I also remember the fun time being high and dizzy and full of energy, running around the golf course at night, making out with cute girls who got stoned with me, ect. Then came a couple acid trips. The first time was in the woods with my two best friends who did everything with me. I remember they had done it before and i remember them tripping out and stuff but i never really though THAT much about it. They surprised me with it one day after drivers ed, in the middle of the day during summer. I didn't think TOO much about it and just put it on my tongue like they said. Like i said, I was bad as **** and I didn't care. They had taken theirs about an hour earlier and were already tripping. Like, really strong. They wanted to go into the woods by a creek after I took mine to smoke a bowl and help it kick in. To be honest, i thought tripping would be just like being high and controllable- NOT a giant deal. Well, we were smoking at the creek and i was looking into the water and all of a sudden I remember seeing patterns happen in a sort of pattern like this. And this pattern continued the whole time (it is actually the normal vision when you are tripping) It was such a rush, I felt numb and everything started to seem like I would never forget it (and obviously, I haven't). My friend said his eyeballs rolled backwards and he could see his brain. I took my sandals off and stood in the water, ankle deep saying "The water feels like a million orgasms on my legs". (it did, i remember). Then... TRUE STORY, the ymca horseback riding crew for the first and only time in my life showed up at the creek. 20+ people on horses going right over our path. We ran away, for some reason we thought they were cops. After leaving the woods, i knew that i was seriously under the influence of a power hallucinogenic drug. A cop drove by the neighborhood rode on the sidewalk we were walking on and I felt he made direct eye contact and knew exactly what was going on. I did look messed up... giant pupils, red skin around eyes, hair looked crazy cause i kept running my hands through it (it felt weird as hell). Ended up walking the golf course the way to another friends house. I kept saying "all i want is a golf cart and a margarita". When we got on her street, the walk down every single mailbox looked like the box was on the ground and the post was sticking up. I was seeing some stuff that was just not right. The trees looked like spiderwebs in the sky. When we got to her house, we found out really quickly she wasn't there and was at a music festival. It was a house we went to alot, and the mom was extreeemly carefree. We just let outselves in and went into the basement to hang out. We were there for like just a little amount of time, before my friend got bad vibes and said he was going home. At first, hearing this mortified me because one of the main things my brain was saying to me while tripping was that he is my oldest and closest friend and I want to be friends with him forever. He was being so cool until he said he wanted to leave. The other friend was friends with me, but not as long. I didn't want to be tripping with him alone, so i actually left with him. I walked him home and he was quiet. He went to his house to sleep. The other friend ended up driving with the girls mom to pick up her from the concert, that must had been weird for him. I went home, SERIOUSLY avoided my parents, drank two bottles of water, took a long shower, and stayed in my room awake for 6 more hours. That's what my drug life was like... there was other times, but for now ill just explain my first unless anyone is interested in more, It all kind of changed though. It went from a youthful, free, and new world type of feeling into a cycle. The next 2 years began to slowly become hanging out inside instead of actually doing things. This girls run down house in the poor side of the neighborhood... it was grimy and dirty, but the mom stayed in her room every day the whole time and didn't care at all about any drugs. Smoking became THE activity, instead of being used to enhance another activity. We would have almost nothing to do unless we were currently smoking, which meant we went through 1/4 ounces of weed daily. I felt like it was the lifestyle for me... i though bongs and collecting pipes was so cool. I loved the different strains of weed and how they differed. As I got older, junior and senior year, I started to look at things differently. Kids were having jobs and making good money, all the sport guys getting lots of hot girls, I felt like my own drug group kept me confined from branching out too much. I had other friends definetely but I wasn't part of an clique except the stoner one. And they were just boring me out, they were so predictable and didn't have goals, they made life look sort of depressing. I, myself, slowly started to move out of the group completly. I actually still smoked, but on my own time with just a small amount of friends who were actually cool about it. Most of the time was by myself, it started to save money and I choose to smoke at good times- not all the time just to do somthing. After getting two jobs, I found less time available to do so and then after looking into military and choosing marines... well after being surrounded by tough and really cool and "real" individuals I started to just think i've outgrown pot. The dishonorable discharge is also like a big no-no. I don't WANT to be kicked out xD I love it here, my friends and the expectations, the training, everything. Anyways yep, no real TLDR. Nobody has to read that, it just felt nice typing some of that stuff- some good ole' reflection. I'm fine if nobody read this. Like I said, it was just interesting to myself to type out and re-read I'm happy where I am at now. The only thing really bringing me down at this point in life is missing my ex-girlfriend
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Banned
Join Date: Sep 2011
Location: fighting alt-right
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My dad has done everything in the book, and I mean EVERYTHING (with the exception of synthetics and novel modern drugs). Anyway, he went to prison for dealing and got locked up for 5 years. He told me how ****ed up you get from certain drugs and convinced me that he despise me if I ever did anything horrible. Basically, he got his life straightened out and hasn't touched anything since. He was actually voted most likely to relapse, but proved them wrong. Because of this, I will never try anything hardcore. Not to give the idea that I have tried anything anyway. I could tell you some of the crazy stories from my dad's lifetime, but that's confidential. |
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Not to be mean, but that sounds horrible. I would never want to be under that influence, or experience stuff like that. Even if a certain drug "helps me focus (?????)" I would never do that because your body is still being put under an influence, doesn't matter if it's "harmful" or not. I don't care who you are: best friend, girlfriend, cousin, person from school, or even my own dad, if you offer me any type of drug or try to pressure me into doing something, then goodbye I am never interacting with you again until you get something in your life straightened out. Maybe I could accept having a friend who does that. Of course I wouldn't be happy with it and I would try to convince them to stop doing it as soon as possible. But I will leave if someone tries to pressure me into doing a drug that I don't want to do. |
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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@Common Sense- Im not sure how old you are but if your not in college i can almost guarantee you will try drugs by then. I remember last year i was saying drugs are for fags and theres no point in them but once you try them you may actually enjoy them. I say everyone at least once in their life should try drugs. YOLO @Kendama- i love hearing trip stories haha post more or make a thread since this thread is derailed lol |
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But as nanners said, college will definitely be throwing that around like its not a big deal. And things like smoking- it's really not an individual big deal at all. Try not to be a killjoy and shame them for doing something like that, but let nobody tell you what to do.
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